For Kim

 

For KIM

BY

MYLES SESSIONS

I’ve been avoiding writing this cuz I am afraid it won’t do you justice and I’ll finally have to accept you’re gone as I am still in denial. What’ I’d like to say about Kim or acknowledge is her beauty. How she could accept or take her challenges with such grace and reveal a smile when so many others could not imagine or bear the reality that she faced every day, that she held in life until her death. Her body may have left the impression that she was tethered, but she never let her mind get wrapped around that. As she let life come to her, her perseverance was something I always admired.

I know somewhere she’s still with us.

She was willing to hear my juvenile complaints even though hers were so much greater and give me advice. She never gave in to the injustices she was faced with or succumbed to them.

She was a great, wonderful, beautiful person with a great sense of humor and always with an opinion, but she never forgot to care or hear you out.

I know you have found peace and it haunts me that I wasn’t there or good enough, but you might forgive me as you always did.

Till we meet again, I love you Kim and I might have been the older brother, but you taught me more than you know, or maybe now you do!

You are very loved, Kim and we’ll meet again but once again, I think you already know.

I’m always reminded of you when I feel my mind start slipping to a dark place and it helps get me back on track.

To one of the kindest people I’ve ever met when I would have been so bitter had I been in your position.

To your perseverance, to your heart, and to everything that made you great and there are a lot of adjectives that could describe that. I ‘m just happy and proud you were my sister. I remember one of your last words to me were “I’m gonna always look out for you, Myles” & you don’t know how much that means.

Life complicates things but you never let it for you, as we all once did in our more honest younger selves before we became jaded to the world. There’s something very unique and special about that. Something you brought to my attention. I wanna embrace that more, something that’s hard to teach with age, but you captured it with ease.

I wanna be a better person for Kim, just as much as for myself. That’s how I choose to honor her as well as the memories. I know all that pain wasn’t for nothing. You are loved and admired by many and will not be forgotten. I hope others will find peace eventually in your passing. I know if won’t be easy as you meant so much. We will see each other on the other side without as many flaws, I hope. You might not have seen your life as perfect, but you were a lot closer than a lot of others I have met.

To my sister Kim, thanks for always being there for me in this life and looking over me in the next as your last words to me expressed. I won’t forget.

You are still with us. There’s a reason this all happened, and we all met, and I can’t wait till the day to understand and see you as you should be.

To the princess, the queen, the bad ass woman you were and all the good things you deserved.

I’ll keep fighting cuz you always did, and your words will always stick with me and your presence will always be felt.

I hope I make you as proud of me as much as you did to everyone who knew you.

Your loving brother Myles……

R.I.P. Kimberly Noelle Sessions

Written for the Celebration of Life March 8th, Kim's birthday. We had planned to hold this in person on her birthday as we were not able to gather before due to Covid but unfortunately that is still the case and the memorial was held virtually.