How Carole King became a validation for me and my husband

This morning I woke up with specific song lyrics in my head. This is how I have been hearing from my daughter, Kim for the last month or so.
Crazy? Maybe.
Unbelievable? Probably.
Meaningful? Yes.

Here's how it works. I wake up and immediately I hear the lyrics in my head. Just like when anyone gets a song stuck in their head. Only for me, it's a specific lyric of a song that ties somehow to my daughter. That being said, she often sends me lyrics from songs that she wouldn't have known herself but I do know the song. Sometimes it's a silly connection, sometimes very sad but usually very meaningful to me personally. Of course, I'm her mom.

This morning's lyric was 𝅘𝅥𝅮You just call out my name and you know wherever you are, I'll come running𝅘𝅥𝅮. Of course this was super familiar to me but I couldn't place the rest of the song or the artist right then. What happens is the lyric stays in my head all day and either the message is the lyric itself or something happens during the day that connects to the lyric.

I don't always mention the daily lyric to my husband. Today something was nagging at me to tell him. He didn't recognize it either but it was definitely familiar to him as well. He mentioned that I should google it. I have done this a couple of times in the past but probably wouldn't have this morning because I felt that the lyric spoke for itself and I loved the message.

As we were talking about it, I decided to go ahead and google. I found that it was the song "You've got a Friend" by Carole King. Of course! I have always liked that song so that made me happy and listening to the entire song gave me more of the feeling of the message.

So on with my day, right? A couple of hours later I pulled up my phone and started deleting emails. If you are like me you are getting a ton of political emails. I normally just delete away. As I am scrolling down I see the sender of one of these emails and it is....Carole King. That's right! THE Carole King who wrote and sings the very song that was given to me this morning. WOW. I immediately ran to show my husband the email. He was like " What are the odds that this person has the same name". It wasn't even sinking in to him that it was actually the same person.

I was thanking Kim  for the awesome sign and really impressed by this one! It could have gotten right past me. If I hadn't mentioned it to my husband who then wanted me to google it, I probably would have just deleted the email and never put it together. 

Kim often works with her dad and I together to get the message across. 💕

By the way... the song on Monday was from Cinderella 🎝Impossible things are happening every day🎝I can attest to that!

Seriously!

A letter to my daughter 9 weeks in...

My little love,

Every day I cry. Every. Day.

I can’t imagine doing any of the things I use to do with you….without you.

I am afraid of what will happen the day I don’t think of you first thing in the morning and last thing at night.

I meditate. I try to watch for signs from you. I fall apart.

Has grief got such a strong grip on me? Or do I hold on tightly, desperately to my grief?

Does feeling better mean letting you go? I Cant.

I want to move forward, not move on.

But I don’t know how.

You send me song lyrics. I get the message.

I feel better for a minute. And then I am screaming inside for you.

Who am I now? This broken-hearted mom? Or has my heart broken open so I can learn?

Did you plan this on the other side before you came to me? Did I? What were we thinking!?

I may need to hold on to this grief just a little longer.

Even though I can barely function.

Until I can figure out this life without you.

And one day reach out my hand to help someone else.

Then maybe I can tell my grief goodbye

and walk into the light.